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You know when your heart sinks and you can’t quite place what makes you feel like that? Or when you just want to cry, and there’s a constant lump in your throat that you can’t seem to shake no matter what you do. Well, I’m kinda going through one of those times right now. I don’t know why though, I mean, shouldn’t I be happy? All of my exams are done and everyone’s life is planning out just fine. I have nothing to be sad about, I’m just feeling quite low.

I guess there are many things going on in my head and so many people to be concerned about. My whole life has changed this year and I can’t quite say whether or not it’s for the better or worse. At first I thought it was good. Going to college was scary, but I made friends and they’re all pretty nice. New friends. People that don’t judge you for your past, what you look like, but for who you are. I guess that’s the special thing. I’ve never really experienced such things before.

But music is on a low. I don’t ever seem to have time to listen to it anymore. To go searching for all those hidden jewels that cause such emotion you understand what life is about, why it’s worth living. Songs that give you such a thrill that even days after listening to it, you’re still thinking about the meaning, searching about the band and constantly replaying it over and over in your mind. It was only a few months ago where music shaped my life, and now it’s slowly dwindling.

Piano. A way I can express my feelings.

Everything and everyone is changing around me. People are advising me on my path to adulthood and to be honest, I don’t want to go there. It sounds such a scary place. Exams and more exams all leading you to a university that depicts you by a letter and decides your fate. Or maybe its fate that decides your university. I’m a big believer in fate. I feel that it guides your life so you eventually end up on your deserving road.

ISFE

Look what arrived in the post today! Joseph Coward's Fanzine ''I'm Sorry For Everything''. It's pretty cute so if you'd like a copy Tweet him @JosephCoward.

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Woodnote Issue 4

Issue 4 of Woodnote

Out Soon

Includes: Tim Burgess (The Charlatans), Clint Boon (The Inspiral Carpets), Tom Caulfield, review from Suicide Party's frontman Joey Ackland.

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National Poetry Day

Hey, so today is National Poetry Day. To support this I’ve decided to post up a poem that I wrote a few months back now. I hope it’s okay, please let me know what you think of it!

Taken

Close the door on the icy screams of your beloved,
And throw away the frozen glow that broke your heart in two,
Shivers trickle through your veins and outcast your humbled thoughts,
Lost feelings whirl around seeking pleasure in finding you.
For once you’re not a child anymore, but an entity thrown into the mass of broken souls,
Fiercely fighting to survive, your shadow sinks into the ground.
Alone and wilted on the floor of your lovers house, surrounded by rose petals and time;
Time that seeks upon you like an unwanted virtue then takes you at your best,
Changing minds and bodies until we join our familiar shadows in the ground.
Does afterlife even exist?
We can only be sure of the one we’re living now,
And even this is full of fakery and wicked spells that charm you towards hell.
Fire blood and anguish carves the world joined with hope, love and ambition.
We see only what we want and act on what pleases us, what pleases you.
Together in a unity we stand alone, after all we are mammals in this world
That destroy other creatures searching for light and all for what?
In the end we will become the earth around us, falling from the sky in tiny droplets,
Reborn into an unknown world, not the one we see now.
Forever changing,
Forever moving.
Yet death is just a step away.


Abigail Gillibrand

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Birthday, Woodnote, Paper Balls and Amazingness

Freeeeeeeee

Sat in a free again. I have nothing to de except read The Great Gatsby and maybe learn some more spellings. Though I really cannot be bothered with that. Instead we are sat throwing paper balls in our friend’s direction. It’s a fun game. And by the way, I’m sat next to the most amazing person in the world ;)  (Yeah, she told me to put that) but she is pretty amazing!!!

If you’ve been following my tweets you’ll know that Woodnote now has its own blog and the next issue will be out November time.  It’ll feature Clint Boon, Tim Burgess, Tom Caulfield a review from Suicide Party’s front man, Joey Ackland, and reviews on the Bingley Fest and Tim Peaks diner at Kendal Calling. An ace issue to end the year!

Check out its blog here: www.woodnotemagazine.blogspot.com

It’s also my mum birthday today; so, happy birthday mum! She’s got a new bike which is lovely, but mine and my sisters present to her is all the way in Leeds, it’s gonna be a very late Birthday present. (Or an early Christmas present at that!)

Not much else has been going on really, just going to and from college every day. It’s so tiring I hate setting my alarm for 5:55am every Sunday night; is depressing! Though the lessons and the people are ace, it’s just the bus rides and the early starts are no good!

That’s about it for now I guess. If you’d like a copy of the next issue of Woodnote e-mail me at Wood_note@hotmail.co.uk or find us on twitter @_woodnote / @AbiGillibrand

Freee

Okay, so I’m currently sat in a free whilst writing this – even though it will most probably be posted tonight, as I do believe blogger is blocked.

I am immensely bored with nothing to do except learn a list of spellings – but when you’ve written them out like twenty times, it gets tedious.

I have half an hour left to go and the time is going reallllll sloooww (hey, that rhymes!) anyway I’ve just received a text from my sister saying that she has got us tickets to go and see MIKA. I’m so excited, his gigs are more like shows, or were for his last album, however, his songs have gone all club like so I really don’t know what to expect.

I swear these minutes are dragging. I have REP next and the people in my class are so lovely; it shouldn’t be too much of a bad lesson. Then, this afternoon, I have the college magazine which sucks cause it’s an enrichment and is compulsory (it takes up two of my frees). But hey, it was the best of a bad bunch … I mean I could be doing rugby?

Anyway, I should really return to these spellings unfortunately … wish me luck! x

College life

So yesterday I entered the world of college life. It’s a beautiful place full of … work and … very intimidating people, but the subjects I’ve taken themselves are actually quite alright (so far). We’ve been told to read this book called The Company of Wolves, it’s like an alternative take on Little Red Riding Hood, though very disturbing in some parts and quite gothic. I think I’m gonna like it though. My REP, Critical Thinking and History classes seem nice, it’s just my English lit and language classes that are both kind of scary; Tall men with beards. Also, I’ve noticed that almost everyone is ginger too. All these ginger guys walking around ... quite funny. And then if it’s not ginger, it’s a bleach blonde surfer hairdo - bless them!

Then you get the buses. Not my friend. They came at the right time on Tuesday, and we got to sixth around an hour early, that’s alright though … time to explore. But then today was awful. We waited half an hour (7:10am – 7:40am) and not one bus showed up. This is quite worrying as it takes around an hour to get to sixth and college starts at 8:45. Also, it was enrichments today and they opened at 8am so we all wanted to be there early to bag a place in a good subject. We ended up getting there at 8:35 and no computers were free. I managed to get a place on the college magazine eventually which is really good. It was either that or photography and no one could find photography on the list so the magazine it was.

That’s my two days summed up. It can be a lonely place, but I’ve made a friend, he is also ginger, looks kind of like Ed Sheeren but is very nice! Annnnd, he is also on the college magainze with all the same frees as me, so hopefully I can buddy up with him and his friendlings.

Other than that, not much has happened in the life of moi. I have got an interview back from Clint Boon which is amazing and will be featuring in the next Woodnote. He has drawn himself too which is rather cute so yeah, check it out in the next issue.